I let fear get the best of me

I have a huge fear of....Water. I know it sounds crazy but its true. I had two incidences involving water and now as an adult, I fear the water. Yes, I'll get into a pool, lake or even a river but when I can't reach I freak out. But, if you really know me well, this isn't my biggest fear. I don't need to tell you what it is because my close friends/family already know but this fear got the best of me this week! I sat and my desk and couldn't even really work because this fear consumed my every thought! I did a lot of "what if's" in my head, which made my anxiety level, go through the roof. I couldn't wait until 3pm so I could leave and go check on my fear. I cried and pleaded with God on my way home and over and over I had to say that Jesus will take care of my problem. So, I walk into our hotel room and see what I needed to see. The first thing I said was, "Thank you Jesus"! I couldn't help but think that if God takes care of something this big, that all the "little stuff" like getting into a house, will fall into place. God is teaching me a lot lately that most of the time I over look. I am thankful that he humbles me when I need to be humbled! I feel that God has something big in store for my family but especially with me. So, I'm waiting to see His plan unfold and thankful for all He has given me!

Serventhood

Our last Sunday at River Valley Church, Pastor Joe preached about Serventhood! The RVC spent an afternoon at the local nursing home serving others. I thought to myself since we are moving, I'm working part-time and don't have a house to call home yet, why not serve other in this way. My first week here in Wisconsin, I called our local nursing home and spoke to the Volunteer Coordinator and told her that I wanted to come and volunteer, she was just thrilled. So, its been two weeks and I love it and as wrong as it maybe, I already have my favorites. So far, I have help transport people to/from church services, played musical bingo, went shopping with the seniors at the Walmart and help with a cooking class. On Tuesday, was early for the cooking classes so I help transport Seniors who had to go to the gym or for coffee social. So many of the patients are pretty much out of his and I asked once of the nurses if I could take a gentleman to the gym. She told me yes and that he was a COL in the US Army. So, I talked to him on the way to the gym and once we were there I turned and faced him and I said, "Where you a COL in the Army"? His eyes lite up and said, "Yes, Ma'am"!! I touched his arm and told him that today was Veteran's Day and I just wanted to thank him for his service. Then I made him cry! But, that was the most rewarding time at the nursing home so far.

In a Funk

Okay, so I totally should be in a Funk today, but I am! Its my birthday and while friends and family have sent me ecard and emails (which I really appreicate) I haven't heard the words Happy Birthday said to my face. Later today the kids will remember its my birthday but not until we are on the way to cold stone for ice-cream! My husband (I'm on the phone with him now), MIL, SIL, & BFF will call and say the words but again, not face to face.
Then I'm just bummed about being in a hotel. I want nothing more to be in a house and starting to make it into our home! But, not yet...I guess its not my time!!
If I have to look at the big picture, I'm thankful to be married to an amazing husband and for the health of my family! We'll have a home again in a few short weeks but right now today, I'm having a pity party for myself.
Happy Birthday to me!!

Home Sweet Home.....NOT!!

So, its been awhile since my last post, I would like to say its because I was really busy but the truth be known I haven't been in the mood to blog! Tomorrow will be day number 30 in a hotel and I feel the four walls that surrounding my family are closing in. I am so sick of eating out, its not even funny. We do have a small fridge and a microwave and are trying to be adventurous to see what we can fix with what we have!! We did buy a crock-pot and when Thomas gets back we are going to make a pot roast or soup...I can't wait!!
We had to go sign papers on the new house last week. I would like to say that were good papers but they weren't! We had to sign papers moving our close date to December 1st. The problem with this is that we don't even know if the house is ours yet. If we knew that buying a house in foreclosure would be so difficult, we would have never done it. We do have a couple of back up homes if this falls through but that means we have to wait even longer to get in a home! God has a plan and I trust Him but right now I'm struggling! Perhaps He is really trying to teach me about Patience because I hate waiting!!
So, below is a list of things that I miss about being in a home!!
*Space
*My big man recliner
*A yard to put the dog out
*My whole kitchen
*Family pictures
*The Washer & Dryer
*A privite bath-tub, the tub in the hotel is in the livingroom, so I can only take baths when people are sleeping
*Winter Sweaters
*My bed!!
So, I'll keep you posted with our housing situation and I can't wait to report when we move into our new house!!