Monday, June 30, 2008
Stress. stress. stress
I recently read that moving is the 3 largest cause of stress in America, after death and divorce. Boy, today I'm feeling that stress!!! Tomorrow the realtor is coming over to the house and I'm not ready....but if we don't get the ball rolling, Thomas and I are going to have to live apart longer then we want to. The house is some-what clean, I'll freshen up tonight but things won't get real clean until the kids go up North to my in-laws and my father-in-law comes here to help us out for a few days. We did get a storage until which I'm thankful for because I can now store stuff that we currently aren't using and it also help make the house look a little larger. I pray that it doesn't take long for it to sell but in this market, who knows. Our house is a great starter house and is very homey (yes, its small). We've had four great years there and I hope that another couple will enjoy it as much as we have. So, keep us in your prayers....we'll need it!
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I love to Copy.....NOT!!
Don't take this blog the wrong way....I love my job BUT there are also some duties that I'm not overly fond of....one would be coping. First off, you have to understand that I work for Engineers, and Engineers seem to like paper and different sizes of paper at that!! So, this morning I had one of my Engineers hand me a huge pile of papers and he asked me if I could make him, "just one copy"!! So, for the next hour, I removed staples and then re-stapled, unfolded and refolded drawings, had to go to a special copier to print the drawing and then copy over two thousand pages of Engineering stuff. When I handed it to the Engineer he commented on how fast I got it done and I told him is was one of my least favorite things to do, so I got it done right away so it wasn't sitting on my desk. He did thanked me but I wonder if he stopped to think about the hour worth of work I lost just to copy his paperwork. I doubt it!!!
With this up-coming move, I've thought a lot of my career and what direction I want it to go. I am so thankful to have a job and also to be employeed by the Government, I am blessed but I think its time for a change. Because Ft. McCoy is a smaller base, I can't be too picky so I might have to take a secretarial type job but once I get my foot in the door, I'm going to try something different. There are so many unknown right now; were we are going to live, are we going to be able to sell our house, how long with Thomas and I have to live apart, will I find job!!!! I'm sure we'll look back at this time in our lives and being able to have a good laugh and look what we got out of the whole experience. But as of today, I feel a little stressed and overwhelmed but I'm thankful for my husband & children, good health and my job....even if it does involve coping.
With this up-coming move, I've thought a lot of my career and what direction I want it to go. I am so thankful to have a job and also to be employeed by the Government, I am blessed but I think its time for a change. Because Ft. McCoy is a smaller base, I can't be too picky so I might have to take a secretarial type job but once I get my foot in the door, I'm going to try something different. There are so many unknown right now; were we are going to live, are we going to be able to sell our house, how long with Thomas and I have to live apart, will I find job!!!! I'm sure we'll look back at this time in our lives and being able to have a good laugh and look what we got out of the whole experience. But as of today, I feel a little stressed and overwhelmed but I'm thankful for my husband & children, good health and my job....even if it does involve coping.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Disney on the Brain
Okay, I have to admit that I have Disney on the Brain. I can't get any work done and I still have a whole day of work tomorrow....
Total random thought from Callie
So, I was getting out of the shower this morning and I said to myself, "I can't wait to brush my teeth, my mouth tastes awful". So, as I'm brushing my teeth I can't help but think of two of my co-workers who have to worse smelling breath ever. I wonder if they get out of the shower and say, hmmm, my mouth tastes awful, I better brush my teeth. Then I wonder if its a medical condition but I would think they would have it check out or at least chew on mints or gum. I have a phobia about bad breath so I alwasy have gum or mints with me. I really wish other people would do the same.
So, that it my totally randome thought for the day!!
So, that it my totally randome thought for the day!!
Very Mad
I was so made last night!!! At 9:30 the doorbell rings and its a young man wanting me to fill out a survey. Excuse me, I have two babies that were sleeping but woke up because the dog was barking. So, I tried to be nice and said that I'm busy with my boys and then shut the door. Then Matthew was very upset that he cried for the next hour and then I had to rock him back to sleep, it was 11 by the time he was back to sleep. Poor Kevin couldn't sleep because Matt was crying and he went to bed around 11 as well. Both boys didn't want to wake up this morning and were a little on the cranky side but Spiderman fruit-snacks seemed to help a little.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Stealing from another Blog
So, I was on my best friends, pastor's blog this afternoon and the end of his blog, he wrote the saying below. Its simple yet beautiful.
In the light of His Grace, I walk on!!
Its just what I needed for todady
In the light of His Grace, I walk on!!
Its just what I needed for todady
Makenna Jo
Tomorrow is the big B-day for Makenna, I can't believe that she'll be 14. Time has gone by so quickly and I know that I'll blink my eyes and she'll be graduating from High School.
If you haven't met Makenna, you should, she is amazing person, I just wish she could realized that. Makenna is a beautiful person who is funny, talented and loving. Her favorite subject is Language Arts and I love to read her stories, even though they are sometimes dark. She loves to draw and her art work decorates my cubical. This year was her third year in Speech, she speaks so well, I always sit back and let my chest swell with pride as she performs. She is active in Job's Daughters and loves hanging out with all her Jobie friends. Right now she's in the middle of her softball season but her favorite sport is volleyball and Thomas and I were so proud when she made the varsity team. One of Makenna's best qualities is her love for her brothers. Makenna was old enough to understand all the fertility treatments and the miscarriage we had to go through to get pregnant. She was there for the the ultrasounds and was always one of the first visitor to see both of her brothers. They love her so much and when she's not home they miss her so much.
This last year was a hard year for Makenna. Everyone says its the age and they are just going through a stage, this isn't the case for Makenna. Makenna is a survivor of sexual abuse and even though the abuse ended almost 10 years ago, but the scares are still fresh for her. I feel that as her parent I've done everything I can to help her, she's been in therapy since age 4, I'm there for her, I pray for her; what else can I do?! At age 11 Makenna had her first suicide attempt, she tried to hang her self with a scarf. I didn't find this out until several months later after a huge fight and I told her should could tell me anything....I meant it but that wasn't what I was expecting. We changed therapist and Makenna went threw countless testing and she was diagnosed with ADD, Post traumatic Stress Syndrome, Depression, Obstinate/defiant disorder and several other things. Next thing I knew my 12 year old was on three different medications to "help her" One of the medication is called Abilfy. I was told by the Doctor not read up on the drug (that should have been my first clue) because it would scare the crap out of me. We played with her meds, things seemed to be oaky, there were still huge fights but we thought she was better....until I received a phone call from my husband who was in Atlanta on travel. I could tell that something was wrong by the sound of his voice, I asked him if something had happened to one of his parents, he said no that he just talked to the police and Makenna was on the way to the ER because she had swallowed a bunch of pill (36 ibuprofen). I have no idea how I even got to the hospital that day. I remember calling my mother in hysterics and my best friend. I got into the ER and I couldn't even speak. When I saw Makenna I hugged her and we both cried. She was being hooked up to the EKG machine and they were doing lots of testing to check for liver damage. I was an emotional wreak. Tom was trying to catch a flight home, he did remember to call the church and one of our pastor's came to the hospital to pray with her. Long story short, Makenna stayed for 7 days in the Adolescence Mental Health of the University. They immediately took her off the Abilify because its not FDA approved for children under 18 and it was causing her to have suicidal thought and another side effect was Tardive dyskinesia, aka facial ticks. The next few months were were okay, still some under lying problems, going to therapy, ect. One night after dinner and an argument, we her Makenna throwing up and Thomas said to her, Makenna did to take more pills. She said yes but this time it was so much worse, she took almost a 100. I can't describe how I felt at the moment...I was angry and sad all at the same time. Because Makenna had taken so many pills they were worried about liver and kidney damage. They decided to give her charcoal the drink. Then 15 minutes later she started to throw it all up. I will never forget the scene, it will never be eased from my mind. My daughter covered in black puke, she was in and out of reality and there was nothing I could do for her; it was a nightmare. Another long story short is that she spend another week and the University and the Doctor's told us that there was nothing they could do for her there, she'd have to be sent away. Unless you've gone threw this before those worked are paralyzing. So, Makenna spent 10 very long weeks up North in Brained. Thomas and I had to make weekly trip for family theraphy but I really truly believe that is has made a difference. Things have been better since she's been home, a there are still some problems. She is really mad at God right now and wants nothing to do with him. She won't go to church with us. We have fought over and we talked to both our pastor and the therapist and they said it not worth the flight to make her go. Its very hard on our family but we try, because its all we know how to do. So, we have good days and we have bad days but everyday we do have I'm thankful for. We pray for her safety every time we leave the house, we worry and call to check on her more then we should but, it what we have to do.
So, now to move forward. We've put our trust in God that he'll take care of her. That she'll go back to Him when she is ready. I've learned that my two little boys helped me go on when I felt like shutting down, they needed me to be there to take care of them even when I felt I couldn't take care of my self. My husband Thomas, what a blessing, what a rock. He held me when I cried and helped to move forward. I can't imagine not having him in my life. If we can make it through this we can make it though anything. Tom and I are so thankful for our small group at church, they lifted our family up in prayer and helped us through this journey. Our prayer is to help Makenna through this time in her life and we hope to help other families with this kind of problem. To be a sholder to lear on when they don't know where to go and to pray for them and to say, I've been there, I know how you feel!
So, Happy Birthday to my sweet baby girl. I love you more then you will ever now and I pray that we can share many, many birthdays together!!
If you haven't met Makenna, you should, she is amazing person, I just wish she could realized that. Makenna is a beautiful person who is funny, talented and loving. Her favorite subject is Language Arts and I love to read her stories, even though they are sometimes dark. She loves to draw and her art work decorates my cubical. This year was her third year in Speech, she speaks so well, I always sit back and let my chest swell with pride as she performs. She is active in Job's Daughters and loves hanging out with all her Jobie friends. Right now she's in the middle of her softball season but her favorite sport is volleyball and Thomas and I were so proud when she made the varsity team. One of Makenna's best qualities is her love for her brothers. Makenna was old enough to understand all the fertility treatments and the miscarriage we had to go through to get pregnant. She was there for the the ultrasounds and was always one of the first visitor to see both of her brothers. They love her so much and when she's not home they miss her so much.
This last year was a hard year for Makenna. Everyone says its the age and they are just going through a stage, this isn't the case for Makenna. Makenna is a survivor of sexual abuse and even though the abuse ended almost 10 years ago, but the scares are still fresh for her. I feel that as her parent I've done everything I can to help her, she's been in therapy since age 4, I'm there for her, I pray for her; what else can I do?! At age 11 Makenna had her first suicide attempt, she tried to hang her self with a scarf. I didn't find this out until several months later after a huge fight and I told her should could tell me anything....I meant it but that wasn't what I was expecting. We changed therapist and Makenna went threw countless testing and she was diagnosed with ADD, Post traumatic Stress Syndrome, Depression, Obstinate/defiant disorder and several other things. Next thing I knew my 12 year old was on three different medications to "help her" One of the medication is called Abilfy. I was told by the Doctor not read up on the drug (that should have been my first clue) because it would scare the crap out of me. We played with her meds, things seemed to be oaky, there were still huge fights but we thought she was better....until I received a phone call from my husband who was in Atlanta on travel. I could tell that something was wrong by the sound of his voice, I asked him if something had happened to one of his parents, he said no that he just talked to the police and Makenna was on the way to the ER because she had swallowed a bunch of pill (36 ibuprofen). I have no idea how I even got to the hospital that day. I remember calling my mother in hysterics and my best friend. I got into the ER and I couldn't even speak. When I saw Makenna I hugged her and we both cried. She was being hooked up to the EKG machine and they were doing lots of testing to check for liver damage. I was an emotional wreak. Tom was trying to catch a flight home, he did remember to call the church and one of our pastor's came to the hospital to pray with her. Long story short, Makenna stayed for 7 days in the Adolescence Mental Health of the University. They immediately took her off the Abilify because its not FDA approved for children under 18 and it was causing her to have suicidal thought and another side effect was Tardive dyskinesia, aka facial ticks. The next few months were were okay, still some under lying problems, going to therapy, ect. One night after dinner and an argument, we her Makenna throwing up and Thomas said to her, Makenna did to take more pills. She said yes but this time it was so much worse, she took almost a 100. I can't describe how I felt at the moment...I was angry and sad all at the same time. Because Makenna had taken so many pills they were worried about liver and kidney damage. They decided to give her charcoal the drink. Then 15 minutes later she started to throw it all up. I will never forget the scene, it will never be eased from my mind. My daughter covered in black puke, she was in and out of reality and there was nothing I could do for her; it was a nightmare. Another long story short is that she spend another week and the University and the Doctor's told us that there was nothing they could do for her there, she'd have to be sent away. Unless you've gone threw this before those worked are paralyzing. So, Makenna spent 10 very long weeks up North in Brained. Thomas and I had to make weekly trip for family theraphy but I really truly believe that is has made a difference. Things have been better since she's been home, a there are still some problems. She is really mad at God right now and wants nothing to do with him. She won't go to church with us. We have fought over and we talked to both our pastor and the therapist and they said it not worth the flight to make her go. Its very hard on our family but we try, because its all we know how to do. So, we have good days and we have bad days but everyday we do have I'm thankful for. We pray for her safety every time we leave the house, we worry and call to check on her more then we should but, it what we have to do.
So, now to move forward. We've put our trust in God that he'll take care of her. That she'll go back to Him when she is ready. I've learned that my two little boys helped me go on when I felt like shutting down, they needed me to be there to take care of them even when I felt I couldn't take care of my self. My husband Thomas, what a blessing, what a rock. He held me when I cried and helped to move forward. I can't imagine not having him in my life. If we can make it through this we can make it though anything. Tom and I are so thankful for our small group at church, they lifted our family up in prayer and helped us through this journey. Our prayer is to help Makenna through this time in her life and we hope to help other families with this kind of problem. To be a sholder to lear on when they don't know where to go and to pray for them and to say, I've been there, I know how you feel!
So, Happy Birthday to my sweet baby girl. I love you more then you will ever now and I pray that we can share many, many birthdays together!!
Feeling Better
Well everyone is feeling a little bit better today, well enough to go back to school or work. Tom and I were the sickest out of the family and we still haven't eaten anything since Monday. I did bring some rice for lunch today so we'll see if I feel like eating later. I still don't feel 100% but I'd rather be sick now then when we are at Disney next week.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Mom's are amazing
I think as children we never understand all the work that mother do! Of course, know I understand completely. Yesterday, I was sick with a flu bug, I was so sick that I could barley drive home from work and within hours I was suffering from all the wonderful symptoms related to the flu. I could barely stay awake let a lone take care of the kids or the house. Thank you to Makenna for helping out with the boys yesterday, I couldn't have done it without you!!! So, I stayed home for work today and still felt awful all morning. After a nap, I started feeling better and I decided to pick up the house. Holy cow, I don't know what happened to my home with in the past 24 hours. I have a wonderful husband but he doesn't really notice when the house is a mess and besides, he is the one that I got the flu from so he was pretty useless yesterday!! So day today, I did the dished and picked up a little bit but tomorrow its back to work for and hopeful I'll be up to cleaning the rest of the house!
I just wanted to tell all the mom's out there that you are amazing and thank you for doing all you do!!
I just wanted to tell all the mom's out there that you are amazing and thank you for doing all you do!!
Do you own Spiritual Sweatpants?
This week at church our Pastor talked about spiritual sweatpants, sin that we are so comfortable with its like slipping on that old favorite pair of sweats. Sin that just slipped right into our lives, sin we longer have to justify because we just grown accustom to it. Stepping outside our comfort zone is never easy and sometime just letting go of our sin seems impossible. I often think that pride keeps us from admitting our sin or keeps us from forgiving ourselves when we sin as Christian. But as Christian is is so important not to forget that were saved through His grace. In Ephesians 2:8 it says, For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God.
In the past few days, I've been forced to think about what sin I've grown comfortable with and what I need to do let go of it. I no longer want to slip my sinful sweatpants!!
In the past few days, I've been forced to think about what sin I've grown comfortable with and what I need to do let go of it. I no longer want to slip my sinful sweatpants!!
Flu
I'm not sure how is happened but everyone in the house is sick with the flu!!! It wouldn't be so bad if I was sick as well but I'm so weak!!! I hope and pray that everyone is better soon!
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