Granny Mo

Today I miss my Granny Mo. I can't believe that she's been gone for almost 7 months now. She always comes to me when I least expect it, invading my thoughts and reminding me to pick myself up and keep going. When she comes, she always makes me cry, I think the tears are a result of the guilt that I feel because I didn't call her when she needed me most. Its hard to talk to someone who you know they are dying. I wish I could somehow take it all back; just to talk to her one more time. I have so many wonderful memories with her that I will share with my children. Makenna is the lucky one because she has a memory of Granny but my boys won't have even one memory of the great woman she was. I am truly blessed to come from a family of strong woman...because of their choices,I am the woman I am today!!

Sunday Afternoon Break

We've been so busy trying to get the house ready to sell that's we haven't had a lot of time to do "fun stuff" So, sunday afternoon I took the kids to Kelly Park to hang out and just play for an hour. We had so much fun. It was a little windy out but it didn't stop Matt and Kenna from getting wet. The house should be all done and ready for show by next weekend and I look forward to taking the kids to the waterpark, going on picnics and a trip to the zoo!

The Last Comic Standing

I truly believe that God is the "Last Comic Standing"!! Over the past few years, I have come to believe that God has a sense of humor! He always seems to give me a lesson but with some kind of twist. Like when we got pregnant with the boys. It took us three years to get pregnant with Kevin and we figures that it would take just as long to get pregnant with Matt....only two months of trying and we were pregnant....we were totally not prepared but are so thankful for the gifts he gave us when we received them
God often teaches me through song. I love contemporary christian music, it touches my soul and I can freely raise my hands in worship. Casting Crowns is an amazing group and their song, "I will praise you in the storm" and help me get through a couple dark nights. I also really like the band, Third Day. It was the first Christian concert I attended and the first time I raised my hands in worship(I will never forget that feel, hands raised and tears falling).
So, this morning I was walking the boys into daycare and the hall lights were all off and all you could really see was the light at the end of the hall. So, me by me,I started singing, "There's a light at the end of the tunnel....there's a light at the end of the tunnel for you....for you". I didn't really think the words I was singing....I was just singing. Then I get to my office and get the computer all plugged in, turn on the ihome and what song you come on the radio but, "There's a light at the end of the tunnel. So, I have to stop and think of what God is trying to tell me, what is the big picture here. I thought about it and right now trying to sell this house is killing Tom and I. We are under so much stress trying to get everything done and get the house sold. We know we are going to have to live a part but for how long. But today, I had a peace about the whole thing...there is a light at the end of the tunnel...and my light is Jesus Christ. We know this move will be a success if we remember to keep our eyes on Him. I know everything will work out but with God's sense of humor, who knows how its going to end.
Below are the lyris to the song....

I won't pretend to know what you're thinking
I can't begin to know what you're going through
I won't deny the pain that you're feeling
But I'm gonna try and give a little hope to you

Just remember what I've told you
There's so much you're living for

There's a light at the end of this tunnel
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you
There's a light at the end of this tunnel
Shinin' bright at the end of this tunnel
For you, for you
So keep holdin' on

You've got your disappointments and sorrows
You ought to share the weight of that load with me
Then you will find that the light of tomorrow
Brings a new life for your eyes to see

So remember what I've told you
There's so much you're living for

"Use your mouth for words not biting"....

I've had to use those words twice this week with Kevin. Twice, I gotten a phone call from his teacher, saying that some child took a toy way for a child and then Kevin has bitten the child. So, twice this week, I've gone downstairs to talk to him and remind him that it's not okay to bite some one even if they've upset you. Today I made him call his father on the phone to tell him what he had done....that was very emotional from him to do!!! I'm not sure why the biting is going on. He did just move to a new classroom and we have a lot of changes going on at home with this up coming move. But, I'm hoping that it won't happen again. I did tell him if I get another phone call from his teacher that he bit a child, he would have to get a spanking...and yes, I do spank my children but only when I have to. So, as you go about your day today, just remember to use your mouth for words, not for biting!!

Me & my "Blankie"

It's true, I'm 36 years old, a wife, a mother of three and the proud owner of my "blankie". This is a horrible picture of me but I'm hoping you'll look past that and look at the love I have for this blanket. Makenna took this picture of my in the Orlando airport after spending 7 very long days doing the whole Disney thing....yes, I was a little tired.
My BFF Jeanell made it for me right our family was moving to Germany....its been like a friend ever since. I carefully packed in suitcase when I had Kevin and he cuddled in the hospital bed with us both. It travel with me though out Europe. It took several trips over the ocean and then back again. It was at the hospital with me both time when I had surgery. I wasn't as organized with the birth of Matthew but when my husband when home to pick up the other kids, without asking he brought my blanket. I always take my blanket camping and it hangs out at the campfire. Its been puked, pooped, peeped and spilled on but it always washes clean.
I want my BBF Jeanell to know that my blanket is one of my more treasured possessions. Even though we live far away, I always feel close to her because of this gift that she made for me, by her own hands and with love!! Miss you, Jeanell!!

Sunday at the Lake

We were so blessed to have spent this past Sunday at the Lake with the Etzlers. We ate BBQ and just hung out for the day. The kids all played in the water and got to go out on the jetski and in the evening we all went on a boat ride. What a great day!!

Zoloft....take me away

Okay, I'm so stressed out that not even the Zoloft is touching my anxiety!! I feel that the house is a weight that can't be lifted from my shoulders. The cleaning is never ending...the children make mess after mess and the animals have hair all over the house...it just makes me want to scream. How can I keep this place clean, work 40 hours a week, take care of kids, try to paint and do other repairs all while my husband is out of town........AAAHHHHH!!!!!
So, that is my blog for today...one of stress!!

I know it will all work out but right now on Tuesday, July 8 at 4:46pm....I'M STRESSED!!!